It has been 4 years since I started blogging. I do not consider myself a good writer but I love to tell stories and share what is in my mind. Back in 2018, I was in deep pain I stopped writing. I could not get myself to write, as it would be hypocritical to post happy stories when I am not okay. I did not want to overshare what I was going through either so I decided to take a break. While some people can still create beautiful contents when they are emotional, it is the other way around for me.
Last year was my worst. My whole being was destroyed and felt like it was beyond repair. Being drained mentally and emotionally made me forget that I am still alive and can do so many things including writing. My anxiety was like a ticking bomb, ready to blow any minute and cover me with hurt, anger, self-pity and insecurity. As much as I would like to shut myself down, I could not stay in that state for too long, as I needed to be okay. I had to look and sound okay. I have a family that needs me and the responsibilities at work had to be fulfilled even if I was dying inside.
In my desperate attempt to go back to my old self, I was present in a lot of eat outs and bonding moments with family and friends, read a handful of books, watched new Korean series, posted a few stories on my blog and attended concerts of the two boybands I love. That felt good and I was a little better but for the most part, the feeling of being “okay” was only temporary. If I have had any progress in terms of my emotional state 2020 started, I really don’t know.
I am still in the process of healing and trying to bring my old self back but sometimes I think she’s already gone .I am not sure if it’s a good thing or a bad thing but this one’s clear- I questioned my worth and value as a person and now I am determined to love myself. The person I have become after everything that happened in the past- the woman who’s trying to live in the present and hopeful about the future is the new me.
Writing is an old habit of mine that will not die and it’s a blessing to be able to share my life through this blog. It’s my way of immortalizing my thoughts and a personal space where I pour my heart out. To you who’s been with me since the start of my blogging journey, thank you!
Cheers to More Stories!
Congratulations TL Meg. 🙂
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Haha! Don’t call me that :p 😊 Thank you 😊
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I’m sorry for what you had to endure in 2019. I hope things get better this year, more power to you.
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Thanks, Bharath! Hoping that this year’s gon’ be much better despite what’s happening around the world 🙏
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Happy Anniversary! 🙂
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Thank you! 🙂
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🙂
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Hi Meg, hope 2020 is the start of a new and beautiful time for you. And a new you. Wishing you lots of love, happiness and peace. Happy anniversary too! 😍
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Thank you, Miriam, for your kind words. I wish the same to you ❤️
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Thank you!
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I hope you have an easier year. Congrats on 4 years of blogging! I can understand not blogging when life is extra tough. I hope you discover all the amazing qualities and inner-strength you possess. 💛
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That’s sweet. Thank you so much, Camie! ❤️
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You’re welcome. 😊
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Happy, happy anniversary! I hope to read more from you and I hope this year will be better kahit na ang stressful na niya Q1 pa lang tayo huhu.
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Grabe no. Ang savage ni 2020 sa earth ngayon. HAHA
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Parang ayoko na mag Q2 🤣🤣🤣
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Kaya nga eh, parang ‘Can it get any worse?’ lang ang peg ng mga trip ni 2020.
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Jusko may iwoworse pa sya talaga haha
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Kaya nga sana kumalma na siya. HAHAHA
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Nanggigigil siya, sis
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Haha trot! Ano na sis tama na. March pa lang parang nakakapagod na
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Kat!!! Salamat 🙂 Oo nga sana maging mas maayos na lahat. Nagexpect ako kay 2020 haha sana kumalma na sya hehe.
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Happy Blogsary friend!! 😊😊😊
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Weeeee! Thank you!
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Congratulations. Well Done! 🌟✨💫
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Thanks, Gail! 🙂
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Akala ko may pa-giveaway. Cheret!
Happy blogversary, Mommy Meg! Continue to shine, di naman halatang may pinagdaanan ka. Sana all fresh and young looking kahit ang daming ganap sa life.
I’m certain you will endure it and overcome it, ano man yan. Prayed. 🙏
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Wala akong sponsor sa giveaway charot! Thank you, Rhea sa prayers 🙂 Hoping for better days ❤️
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Sabi nga, we will always come back to writing and it will always embrace us back. Happy Anniversary, ate! 💖
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Thank you, Amielle! Masaya ko nagsusulat ka na ulit 🤣
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❤️❤️❤️
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Congratulations 🙂
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Thanks, Arlene 🙂
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Yayyy 💜
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Stay strong!
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Ayii. Salamat, Aysa. Ingat ka jarn lagi sa Maldives ❤️
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You are more powerful than you think girl!❤more strength to you..thanks for sharing..congratulations😊keep it up.
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Thank you 😍
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Congratulation MEG, keep safe 🙂
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Thank you! Ingat lagi ❤️
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